i wear black on the outside

“Do you know what it’s like to want something so badly, but not get it in the end? I’m sure you do. It starts out as a small feeling, something you’re almost embarrassed to admit you want. Then as time passes, you think of how your life could be better if you just had that one thing, whatever it is you’re looking for. Then you realized how much of yourself you’ve invested into that dream or idea or person. And then comes the hardest part: the disappointment - the always wanting, but never getting.”